Hello my friends. It’s been months since I’ve participated in His Encouragement, and for a variety of reasons. For a lot of people COVID made life a little slower. Enabled more time for things like blogging, reading, and the other things in life you wish you had more time for. For me, it was the exact opposite. I became more busy at work. And somehow that transferred to more busy at home. And so, the blog has taken a back burner. If you’re a regular follower, you’ve probably noticed I don’t post that often – just the bare minimum.
We’ve had some HUGE changes at work, and none of them have been good. That’s another stresser that’s been in my life. Honestly, I felt like I wasn’t in the right place to share God’s Word with others during these past few months. Yes, I was still reading my bible regularly (I’m doing a read the bible in a year plan), but I just felt like I didn’t have anything to give. I hope this makes some sort of sense.
I’m still miserable at work. I heard a few messages this week at church that really spoke to my heart. About life, my walk with the Lord, and most importantly right now – work. I won’t lie, I hate it. I do not like the new company at all (went through a merger). And my selfish prayer has been for months that God would remove me from this place. That He would open a door for me to leave and still be able to support my family.
He hasn’t done that.
I’m still there.
I want out.
For a while I considered that God just wasn’t answering my prayer. Maybe I wasn’t faithful enough. Maybe I wasn’t praying correctly. Maybe I was being punished for having such a negative attitude.
But God doesn’t do that. He answers ALL of our prayers. Every. Single. One.
The thing is, God knows. He knows everything. And He is answering my prayer – just not the selfish way I want Him to. He convicted my heart this week that perhaps He has a greater reason for me still being at this job. The verse above reminds me that I need to trust Him in this, because His ways are always way better than mine. And who knows why I am still there.
Maybe there’s something amazing coming down the road that I just can’t see yet.
Maybe I’ll be able to witness to someone who doesn’t know the Lord.
Maybe I need to provide encouragement to others during this difficult time.
Maybe, just maybe, this is where God wants me to be for awhile.
Yeah, it’s a super hard pill to swallow. When we don’t get our own way, it is often tough to hear. But now, slowly, I am changing my prayers. Instead of get me out, I’m asking for God to show me wisdom in why I’m still there. I’m asking Him to open a door if He chooses, not because I said so. And, I’m asking Him to change my heart on the matter.
So there you have it my friends. Me pouring a little bit of my heart out to say that hopefully I will be back in the game. Things are still crazy, but I honestly miss blogging. I do. I miss sharing things with all of you. So please forgive me. And I hope that you’ll welcome me back. Because I hope, slowly, I can start posting more often.
Has God spoke to your heart this week? Share in the comments!! I encourage you to visit the blogs below and see what’s encouraged them this week.
Trisha @ Joy of Reading
Nicole @ Christian Fiction Girl
Jacquelyn @ A Heavenly Home
Becca @ The Becca Files
Gina @ Stories by Gina
Rebecca @ Rev. Rebecca Writes
Andi @ Radiant Light
Leslie L. Mckee @ Edits & Reviews by Leslie
Claudia @ Claudia Moser
Keneesha @ Women Loving God’s Way