Sometimes you just want to give up. Whether it’s work, family, illness, or any other obstacle. You just don’t want to deal with it anymore, you get sick of it, and you forget to lean on the Lord. It happens to all of us (if we’re honest with ourselves). I had that experience this week. I’ve had trouble with my back for over ten years. About once or twice a year it goes out on me (either a disc comes out, or my sciatic nerve gets pinched). This time it was my nerve and it happened at the silliest time. I was at church trying to help get the CD player working. I only bent at about a 45 degree angle and that’s all it took. I felt the pinch, and needed help walking away from it. Usually I’m out of work for about 2 days in severe pain, and then it kind of mellows out and I can manage.
But this time was different. It’s been over a week and a half, and the pain hasn’t let up. In fact, some days it’s gotten worse, times a hundred. I’m going to be completely honest with you. Tuesday morning I was in tears as I tried to get out of bed, but couldn’t. The pain was too much. My husband was there to help me, thank the good Lord. I cried in his arms, the kind of crying where you can’t really talk and the tears are flowing so fast you can’t keep up with them. I told him I had enough. I couldn’t take the pain anymore. I had reached my breaking point. I didn’t want to go on. My husband wouldn’t have it of course. He told me I had to, and that I could do it. He reminded me that I was strong and capable, and the pain wouldn’t last forever. And in that moment, do you know what verse came to mind?
Philippians 4:13 entered my mind, and I felt ashamed. I had asked others to pray for me, but I didn’t pray for myself. Sounds silly, right? I have a hard time praying for myself, and don’t do it very often.I pray for others all the time, so why is it so hard to pray for myself? I think it’s because I feel selfish by doing so. But in this moment, as that verse came to mind, I knew what I had to do. The Holy Spirit reminded me that I really can do all things through Christ, BUT…..I have to ask. And so I did. Now, my pain did not go away, however I felt better about it. I had peace in my heart that everything would be ok. I didn’t need to give up, only needed to push ahead.
Friends, do you have something you’re struggling with this week? If you share I’ll pray for you. And just remember, you can do anything with Christ right there beside you. I hope you have a good week. Don’t forget to stop by the blogs below to get some more encouragement!
Trisha @ Joy of Reading
Nicole @ Christian Fiction Girl
Jacquelyn @ A Heavenly Home